zomg i just realised that i haven't updated this blog in ages and this is suppose to be my public blog. i think that everyone thinks that this blog is already dead. well.. short update on my life, there is nothing interesting happenning as usual i lead a rather dull life don't u think. i haven't slept for a day lol. don't ask me why i just can't sleep that would be the best reason that i can give u. i hope that my teacher sends me the survey fast so that i can get it over and done with lol.
sooo.. i miss all the people back home as usual. there is nothing that i don't miss.. o wait.. yea there is someone that i won't miss. actually iw as thinking of talk to HIM cos i'm really tired of this not talking and all but that would mean that i'm weak isn't it? cos i was the one that suggested that we shouldn't talk in the first place.. and i promised, but besides that i remembered why i stopped talking to him in the first place. then i don't think i should talk to him anymore. i dunno if he would ever talk to me. i guess that he would never ever talk to me again but i don't mind anyways, cos he wasn't very nice to me in the first place. it's a long complicated story that would take me a whole day to even finish talking about. i don't care about who he's in a relationship with. i'm really over him... which i am happy about.
my annoying room mate is slamming the doors again. it is seriously wigging me out man. phew i just thought that i left my keys in the keyhole again. yes again, cos i done it before. it's pretty bad i guess. if u haven't realised that i like turqoise, u're really slow. i like quite a few colours, then i realised that i might have like certain colours because of him, colours which i normally didn't like in the first place but who cares right. influence on my life. then again doesn't everyone influence ur life in one way or another. i only had one class today. it's annoying to wake up early to go for class-oh wait, i didn't sleep so i can't really say that i woke up early today for class now can i?
i ate spagetti and toast for breaky. it was disgusting. don't even get me started on it. and the worst thing is that i was the one that made it. i say it's the spagetti thought, it taste a bit gross. def not going to eat that kinda of stuff again. gross. so what am i going to do with the spagetti in the fridge? o well i guess i would eat it some other day then. i got my new book which i am very happy about. there is another book that i need to get but then i don't want to buy book no. 13. i hate that number sia. urgh. i like 8. but i won't buy book 8 it would be too late then don't u think so. well i guess i should update other stuff.. heh.
addios.
i love having a black background sometimes.. it really allows me to use whatever colous i want to.. except for back though. so like.. i'm going out with my bc friends this friday.. i can't wait.. just have to think of where to meet and what to do. i was thinking of like.. taking neoprints, eating.. maybe watch a movie cos i haven't watch a movie with that before.. cos like that time koonlong and ma rui wanted to watch the dark knight but i laredy watched it.. mind u, that show is like damn freaking long. hmm.. this font looks kinda big.. but i think that it would look smaller when i upload this post. i dun think that many people are even reading this blog sia. haha.
i found out that fishy changed her blog.. zomg.. i must be like really slow man. so i'm gonna ask her for her addy when i talk to her. i can't believe that tmr is gonna be palm sunday, time really does fly doesn't it. haha. was suppose to eat dinner with willy today i think.. i think la.. cos like nothing was confirmed. he keeps asking me to go out and do stuff with him.. haha.. actually it's been a really long time since we met up. cos the last time we just went for dinner.. haha.. he hasn't changed much.. in my opinion that is. hmm..
omg.. i can't wait to poke fun at daryl man!! woah! he's bald now.. muahahaha.. let the fun begin man. okies.. i think i'm being damn bad here. next sat i'm going out with my bestie!! really excited.. cos she's my bestie afterall. :DDDDD oh yea.. have to go out with fishy too.. there's like so much things i gotta get now. damn i can't believe that i have driving like.. tmr.. at like 7am. just kill me man. it's damn freaking early. i dun think that my eyes would be opened fully. gotta see when is my next lesson after that. hehe. wonder what a prozac is. ok that was like damn random. think i'm gonna wrap up here. dunno what else to say. au revior.
omg.. i can't believe that i'm so freaking free to even blog. gosh... haha.. anyways.. i dun think that much has been going on.. still remember that daryl owes me one outting.. muahahahaha.. yes.. i'm gonna torture him. it's just us.. we always fight with each other.. haha.. but still.. we are super good friends.. we dun like seriously fight.. only like play fight u know. so.. i haven't heard if sam got into the uni yet.. gosh i hopes that she gets in man.. afterall.. seh is my bestie.. whee.. haha.. speaking of which i wanna go out with her again.. there's so many things which i need to buy now which i know she knows why. i'm like so excited for university man. it's like.. woah. haha. i can't wait to go back to school again. and this is coming from someone who hates to wake up in the morning for school. the irony.
so hmm.. i guess there's nothing much to say then. currently i think i'm hooked on that bejeweled game on facebook. haha.. but as with al my othe game addictions.. i give it a onth and it will go off.. haha.. i get bored of games.. cos it's all the same.. there's nothing new.. like.. each level u still gotta do the same stuff and not something different.. and like doing that over and over again just makes me plain bored. so.. i can't believe i didn't go for prom. o wait i can.. cos like practically none of my friends went for it except for lynette.. but.. hmm.. haha.. can't tell u why i regret though.. secret. haha. but i guess it would have been fun to go.. but it might be boring for me cos i dun really know anyone there. besides lynette and her friends.. but like.. u know i dun really like to impose on soeone or make it look like i'm clinging.. cos i'm independent :D it's true. haha.. i'm gemini after all..
still all the astrology thing.. some stuff are true some aren't cos it kinda depends on what time u are born, how full the moon is and where the planets are all, where u face,, it's all really complicated. so.. yupps.. and which day u're orn too.. the year. gosh i sound like a damn blood nerd. :( i dun wanna be a nerd.. haha.. i dun wanna be a pie from chicken run.. okies.. that was like really random. haha.. all the chickens were british.
speaking british. i thnk that british guys have the cutest accent ever. like EVER. haha.. it's so... haha.. it's foreign.. makes u like them more u know.. afterall i dun really like that whole cowboy accent from usa.. it just reminds me of hillbillies in a way.. and my impression of hillbillies.. not too good though.. blame the media man.. haha.. british accent.. mmm... haha. anyways.. getting carried away here. o yea. i watch the confessions of a shopaholic.. maybe that's where the whole british accent thing came in. the male lead has a super hot accent. hehe. he ain't bad looking too. i can't believe that some ppl actually spend that much money on their clothes and stuff.. like so much. i dun reall care too much about designer.. i like my clothes to have a brand name but they don't need to be prada or chanel.. haha.. although.. i still want that chanel bag that lauren conrad has,, it is so freaking nice. enuff said. i should get some rest. got a whole new day ahead of me. muacks.
i realised that my blog is damn freaking noisy man.. o yea.. i can't believe that i still have time to even blog. there's like so many things going on in my life right now. haha. oh ea.. i forgot topass sam her chocolates. i can be such a forgetful person sometimes. and my teachers think that isn't true but it is.. it's called short term memory. haha. it's not that i don't want to bring my homework sometime u know.. it's just that at that point in time i kinda lose my train of thought and forget what i'm doing. so then.. i won't remember it until it's too late. yupps. like.. i forgot to take my breakfast. this happened so often when i was schooling. i usually take a slice of bread and i leave it on the table. the thing is i have to rmeember to take the slice of bread with me before i go out.
but u see, the thing is i tend to forget that part and rush out the door. until i'm like.. halfway in my journey then i realise that i forgot to take my breakfast. like who wants to forget breakfast man.. seriously. so it's like.. i really forgot to do some stuff and like it's not that i wanted to do it. it just happens and i can't control it. i can't tell my mind like hey.. stop forgetting stuff cos it doesn't work that way. hopefully future teachers would be more understanding. so this means that i need to eat more fish to help me remember stuff better.
i miss talking to my bc friends. there're so far away. the memories they gave me were like unforgettable. hahahahaha. so many fun times. it's like.. we were the only ones in the group that really bonded u know. and we still talk and hopefully go out. haha.. but it's not too possible cos daryl and koonlong are still in ns. haha. the two of them.. are like sugar and coffee.. they go along so well. i just dun really get along with koonlong.. mabe it's cos i dun really know him that well yet and we haven't even spoken a word since we last met. i dunno. it seems kinda awkward to me. but daryl is a whole different story. who else would bug me in the middle of night saying that he couldn't sleep and wants me to talk to him. haha. in that way he is like.. kinda my best friend but at the same time he isn't cos i haven;t know him that long yet. haha. sam and guppy are my besties. guppy.. he's the first guy to be my friend.. if not i have no guy friends man. that would be kinda sad.
speaking of which i haven't talked to him in like the longest time ever. i should do so sometime soon. i have to go out with fishy too.. although we did go out that day to the education fair. haha. but no harm. gotta go out with sam, guppy, daryl and ma rui. DARYL OWES ME ONE OUTTING! haha. he said he would plan a day that we can go out. humph. haha. in the meantime i should think of other stuff i could do. ciao amigos.
man.. i can't believe that i haven't blogged in like the longest time ever. so a lot of stuff has happened. this is a public blog so i'm not too keen on revealing too much information. haha. well.. first off.. i reconnected with one of my long lost friend from england. loads of stuff has changed since the last time we talked. haha. that was like so long ago. well.. he grew taller.. that i know.. took out his braces and had some piercings and tattoos. yupps.. i still like talking to him.. i remember like the first time i actually heard his voice.. my first thought was.. what a cute accent. haha. but it's true.. y'all know british have a really cute accent.
anyways.. other that have happen. i became closer to my good friend from british council. daryl. haha. he's damn freaking funny. damn freaking funny. hahahaha. and he always suan me. always. first.. it's about be being a guy.. then i tell him that i'm a girl.. and he goes zomg.. you are? i thought u just like cross dressing! haha. he's loads of fun to talk to. damn.. talking about that i miss talking to him already. T.T he's my good friend.
ok.. other friends that i've made... ma rui and koon long. haha. they're awesome. oh.. i forgot about ashley. he's so full of crap sometimes. he loves to play tricks on me. he LOVES it. haha. but he always sleeps in class.. so who wakes him up? your truely.. haha.
other stuff? i dunno. i din go for prom and missed out on talking to my eyecandy. but i'm over him already. eyecandy... mmm.. haha. got a haircut and a nephew. haha. sighs... i'm tired.. haha.. will blog when i wanna.. (:
alr
u know i think that it's kinda funny.. just after i logged on i saw the featured question about how to accept rejection from the one u love.. well.. i went thru a few answers and thought that what solarhead said was really.. well.. wise in a way. i haven't thought about it that way before.. but i guess that thing has been trying to tell me the same thing to.. like when it's time to give up.. just give up. there's no use going on cos it'll only cause hurt to urself. it's not going to hurt the other person bcos they dun care about u already. i thought u might wonder what his response was. so here is solarhead's responseHow would you accept rejection from the person you love?
wow
I know a little something about this one.
Let it go. If there's nothing there, attachments/feelings not reciprocated, then there's no reason to continue with it ... only misery and paranoia grow in that garden.
Lighten up. Perhaps it'll prove itself to be for the Best. the Intended could turn out to be a whack-job or just a bad match, obscured by infatuation.
Walk Away. You'll never find what's waiting around the corner unless you actually walk far enough away to make the turn that leads to the rrest of Your Life.
PAX
http://www.xanga.com/Solarhead/666728480/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
pretty deep hur? i think it would help me outta this sticky situation that i'm in.
i thought that this guy's response was also pretty good..
http://weblog.xanga.com/marksonwalls/666727479/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
u all should go check it out. haha.
some other responses that were wuite intriguiing
http://weblog.xanga.com/poeticarla/666722911/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
http://www.xanga.com/mijau/666717614/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
http://weblog.xanga.com/Southeast_Beauty/
666700548/how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
http://www.xanga.com/CARLOSISTHEGREATEST/666686059/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
and the ultimate answer goes to this guy...
http://weblog.xanga.com/boldntrue/666702850/
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it's like wow... it's liek how the old saying goes.. "if u love someone, let them go, if they come back to u, they are forever yours, if they don't, they never were." it's so true.
wow.. it seems like just yesterday the comps just started, but now it's all over. well.. for me it is though. i guess.. i'm gonna miss it. this was my first time getting into the finals and it's like havoc there. we have the retards cheering for their school, the act cutes, the tyrants, the...clumbsy.. haha. guess u won't figure that one out. unless u already know about retards incorporated. haha. gonna miss trainings. hopefully i can still go down to train though. i cna't bear the thought of me gaining weight after i stop my training. i wanna be thin! haha. there were some obnoxious ppl that sat in my skool's place today and they din even bother to move even though they knew they were sitting where they weren't suppose to. i glared at them but apparently they din get the msg. so wols. haha. so disappointing though.. cos i really like that skool.. but their boys.. sighs. and one of them was really really hot but i guess he's already taken. i can't find a good looking guy that's not already taken. haha... dun think that i'm that attractive anyways.
although.. thong thinks that i am.. dunno la he.. already have a girl still go and say other girls pretty. but it's nice to know that i am though. haha. wish that some guy asked me out.. they are all so hot... well.. most of them.. and they are all swimmers.. haha. swimmers are cool. that's a fact. haha. we exercise every muscle in our body when we swim..hehe. i was damn nervous today actually. cos i kept counting my strokes but they were like all irregular. haha. it's suppose to be 5 strokes for five metres.. but sometimes it was like 5.5 or 6 or 5.. it was so confusing.. but i just stuck to five.. and kicked like mad. so we took off 8secs from out timing. i guess it's kinda cool that we actually got in the finals. would have gotten in for the free relay but we got dq. so sad.. we were sixth for that. but bygones are bygones. haha. so we jsut got 8th for the medley. this year it's quite good cos we got like 10 points for our skool. which is really good. if we continue having the coach.. i'm really sure next year there would be more peeps in the finals.. provided everyone goes for training.
well.. before my event.. i was really thirsty so i asked this girl if i could have some water and she said yea.. she's so nice.. haha.. i should have brought my water.. dunno.. weird craving for water.. haha
i'm so happy.. i can finally take my soft drinks and a bit of chilli!!!!!!!!! whee!!!! it's been weeks since i last had a soft drink and today i got a taste of it again and man did it feel good. so how did my other events go? well... dead last.. haha. so sad right? but i got a new pb. that's personal best! i bet my own record. like... hmm.. for free.. i beat it by.. 6secs.. for back it's like 2 secs.. cos my previous one was like.. 50secs.. which was really slow. i'm happy yea.. and the 100m is the most amazing one.. guess how much? haha.. hmm.. 12secs! wheeeeeeeeeeeee! haha. i'm happy really. at least i got a taste of what it was like to be in the finals and i thank God for the great opportunity. yupps. feel like watching a movie.. soon. there's some gathering tmr.. swim team is more bonded. so happy. just a question.. who's gonna be the next captain? hard choice. haha, the most likely one we can't pick. so.. it's just kinda hard. feels kinda sad to say bye to my cca.. i'll miss it so much.. haha. well.. i wish them all the best! yea.. happy memories...
so this is what happened. i screwed my mid terms. well screw it. enuff said. so i was picking out songs for my comp. unlike most ppl, i'm driven by music and emotion. that means, the angrier i am, the faster i swim. haha. most people want all the serene thing, but for me it just doesn't work that way cos i'm different. how i block out ppl? well i'm thinking of a song. i hope i dun forget to count my strokes. remember the flags. i think of something that would really make my blood boil. not telling wad.. and it does work. i can't meditate.. i have an attention prob or i would think so. music just helps me stay focused i guess.
screw exams. they are just a way to show u how stupid u are. so screw them. whoever came up with exam sure knows how to torture people. sometimes u wish that u could go back in time and just punch the person who create something that made everyone's life difficult. like.. math. urgh. i hate math. it's like a stupid subject u know.. wow like i'm gonna use integration in my job. that's why i picked a job which i dun have to use math. duh. even if it does, it would just be a minimal. i wouldn't need to use integration or vectors or any of those shit. haha.
so my song list. it's a bit different from wad ppl expect a girl to listen to. but i guess that sum 41 is quite good. nice rhythm i guess.. it's jumpy and gets me into the mood of the comp. really motivational. yea sum 41.. of course i won't forget the other great bands like new found glory and matchbook romance, not forgetting everyone's favourite, boys like girls. whoa! yea man. oh o forgot aboutlinkin park. that is like a adamn cool band. i wanna feel, i wanna feel... somewhere i belong! whoa! haha..
actually i'm kinda sad that i missed their concert.. haha.. at that time i din wanna go for it. i dun even know that band members' names.. i just like their music. like how i like daughtry. and how i dislike avril. she is just so.. eww.. can't believe it. still i can't believe that the comps are like... next week. it's too soon. i feel so unprepared but i'll give it my all. haha. besides i get excused from class. so i have to tell my friend to help me collect my work. and my other friends to help me take down notes and stuff. guess this is a short post then. nothing to write about. screw exams. haha.
i feel quite satisfied with myself u know.. i heard the song "we belong together" and i din even feel sad one bit. there's always something to talk about right? haha.. i guess so.. like stuff that happens during cca.. every week is like something new.. i think i would most prob be going out with the guys to eat.. undivided attention.. haha.. just kidding.. the guys just treat me like one of them
i'm like serious.. they talk about their......... even though i'm arond and it's like kidna gross.. at least they're are a nice bunch of ppl.. haha. i can't imagine if i'm the only girl there again.. what more.. mandy is here.. man.. i really dun wanna go.. but i hvae to.. if it's just me then... i dunno.. note to self.. please bring book to take down ppl's names who haven't paid me the fees yet. i'm quite glad that the school is actually very supportive of swimming.. yea man... i think that things would be a lot better in the future... imagine... in the years to come we could even beat the top three colleges that dominate swimming. we'll just have to start slow and steady.
so today i went to watch narnia. i tell u that show is freaking good. if i could i would go and watch it again.. it's so freaking good. haha.. i'll buy the vcd or dvd.. depends on whether i get a dvd player.. cos there's only a vcd player.. sucky i know. but i guess that it's good enough. haha. i feel damn tired man.. i think i'm gonna turn in early today.. after i finish my chem homework... damn i still have maths.. my maths teacher is such a freaking ***** u know... i can't stand her at all.. grrr... at least doing my work now would be like revision for my block tests.. haha.. yea.. so i should just do it and hand it to her and sit back and relax for the block test. but i wonder if i could negotiate with her.. that i hand it up to her after block test so that i have time to look thru them.. i dunno.. she's like so.. argh.. damn. why her....
i'm happy with the progress that i've made.. ut that doesn't mean tha t i'll stop being emo.. being emo is a part of me.. telling me not to be emo is like telling a singer not to sing.. yea.. guess i should hit the book right? yea.. i'll go make the deal with my teach soon.
whenever u're ready
whenever u're fine
we could do it again
just u and i
it'll be just like old times
only old times weren't that good
we'll do things differently
just u and i
to run on the beach
or sit beneath the stars
from watching movies
to walking endlessly
we could do it again
all over again
just u and me
whenever u're ready
with nothing to lose
and everything to look forward to
just one more time
let we do it again
just u and i
that's they way it is...
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zomg i just realised that i haven't updated this blog in ages and this is suppose to be my public blog. i think that everyone thinks that this blog is already dead. well.. short update on my life, there is nothing interesting happenning as usual i lead a rather dull life don't u think. i haven't slept for a day lol. don't ask me why i just can't sleep that would be the best reason that i can give u. i hope that my teacher sends me the survey fast so that i can get it over and done with lol.
sooo.. i miss all the people back home as usual. there is nothing that i don't miss.. o wait.. yea there is someone that i won't miss. actually iw as thinking of talk to HIM cos i'm really tired of this not talking and all but that would mean that i'm weak isn't it? cos i was the one that suggested that we shouldn't talk in the first place.. and i promised, but besides that i remembered why i stopped talking to him in the first place. then i don't think i should talk to him anymore. i dunno if he would ever talk to me. i guess that he would never ever talk to me again but i don't mind anyways, cos he wasn't very nice to me in the first place. it's a long complicated story that would take me a whole day to even finish talking about. i don't care about who he's in a relationship with. i'm really over him... which i am happy about.
my annoying room mate is slamming the doors again. it is seriously wigging me out man. phew i just thought that i left my keys in the keyhole again. yes again, cos i done it before. it's pretty bad i guess. if u haven't realised that i like turqoise, u're really slow. i like quite a few colours, then i realised that i might have like certain colours because of him, colours which i normally didn't like in the first place but who cares right. influence on my life. then again doesn't everyone influence ur life in one way or another. i only had one class today. it's annoying to wake up early to go for class-oh wait, i didn't sleep so i can't really say that i woke up early today for class now can i?
i ate spagetti and toast for breaky. it was disgusting. don't even get me started on it. and the worst thing is that i was the one that made it. i say it's the spagetti thought, it taste a bit gross. def not going to eat that kinda of stuff again. gross. so what am i going to do with the spagetti in the fridge? o well i guess i would eat it some other day then. i got my new book which i am very happy about. there is another book that i need to get but then i don't want to buy book no. 13. i hate that number sia. urgh. i like 8. but i won't buy book 8 it would be too late then don't u think so. well i guess i should update other stuff.. heh.
addios.
i love having a black background sometimes.. it really allows me to use whatever colous i want to.. except for back though. so like.. i'm going out with my bc friends this friday.. i can't wait.. just have to think of where to meet and what to do. i was thinking of like.. taking neoprints, eating.. maybe watch a movie cos i haven't watch a movie with that before.. cos like that time koonlong and ma rui wanted to watch the dark knight but i laredy watched it.. mind u, that show is like damn freaking long. hmm.. this font looks kinda big.. but i think that it would look smaller when i upload this post. i dun think that many people are even reading this blog sia. haha.
i found out that fishy changed her blog.. zomg.. i must be like really slow man. so i'm gonna ask her for her addy when i talk to her. i can't believe that tmr is gonna be palm sunday, time really does fly doesn't it. haha. was suppose to eat dinner with willy today i think.. i think la.. cos like nothing was confirmed. he keeps asking me to go out and do stuff with him.. haha.. actually it's been a really long time since we met up. cos the last time we just went for dinner.. haha.. he hasn't changed much.. in my opinion that is. hmm..
omg.. i can't wait to poke fun at daryl man!! woah! he's bald now.. muahahaha.. let the fun begin man. okies.. i think i'm being damn bad here. next sat i'm going out with my bestie!! really excited.. cos she's my bestie afterall. :DDDDD oh yea.. have to go out with fishy too.. there's like so much things i gotta get now. damn i can't believe that i have driving like.. tmr.. at like 7am. just kill me man. it's damn freaking early. i dun think that my eyes would be opened fully. gotta see when is my next lesson after that. hehe. wonder what a prozac is. ok that was like damn random. think i'm gonna wrap up here. dunno what else to say. au revior.
omg.. i can't believe that i'm so freaking free to even blog. gosh... haha.. anyways.. i dun think that much has been going on.. still remember that daryl owes me one outting.. muahahahaha.. yes.. i'm gonna torture him. it's just us.. we always fight with each other.. haha.. but still.. we are super good friends.. we dun like seriously fight.. only like play fight u know. so.. i haven't heard if sam got into the uni yet.. gosh i hopes that she gets in man.. afterall.. seh is my bestie.. whee.. haha.. speaking of which i wanna go out with her again.. there's so many things which i need to buy now which i know she knows why. i'm like so excited for university man. it's like.. woah. haha. i can't wait to go back to school again. and this is coming from someone who hates to wake up in the morning for school. the irony.
so hmm.. i guess there's nothing much to say then. currently i think i'm hooked on that bejeweled game on facebook. haha.. but as with al my othe game addictions.. i give it a onth and it will go off.. haha.. i get bored of games.. cos it's all the same.. there's nothing new.. like.. each level u still gotta do the same stuff and not something different.. and like doing that over and over again just makes me plain bored. so.. i can't believe i didn't go for prom. o wait i can.. cos like practically none of my friends went for it except for lynette.. but.. hmm.. haha.. can't tell u why i regret though.. secret. haha. but i guess it would have been fun to go.. but it might be boring for me cos i dun really know anyone there. besides lynette and her friends.. but like.. u know i dun really like to impose on soeone or make it look like i'm clinging.. cos i'm independent :D it's true. haha.. i'm gemini after all..
still all the astrology thing.. some stuff are true some aren't cos it kinda depends on what time u are born, how full the moon is and where the planets are all, where u face,, it's all really complicated. so.. yupps.. and which day u're orn too.. the year. gosh i sound like a damn blood nerd. :( i dun wanna be a nerd.. haha.. i dun wanna be a pie from chicken run.. okies.. that was like really random. haha.. all the chickens were british.
speaking british. i thnk that british guys have the cutest accent ever. like EVER. haha.. it's so... haha.. it's foreign.. makes u like them more u know.. afterall i dun really like that whole cowboy accent from usa.. it just reminds me of hillbillies in a way.. and my impression of hillbillies.. not too good though.. blame the media man.. haha.. british accent.. mmm... haha. anyways.. getting carried away here. o yea. i watch the confessions of a shopaholic.. maybe that's where the whole british accent thing came in. the male lead has a super hot accent. hehe. he ain't bad looking too. i can't believe that some ppl actually spend that much money on their clothes and stuff.. like so much. i dun reall care too much about designer.. i like my clothes to have a brand name but they don't need to be prada or chanel.. haha.. although.. i still want that chanel bag that lauren conrad has,, it is so freaking nice. enuff said. i should get some rest. got a whole new day ahead of me. muacks.
i realised that my blog is damn freaking noisy man.. o yea.. i can't believe that i still have time to even blog. there's like so many things going on in my life right now. haha. oh ea.. i forgot topass sam her chocolates. i can be such a forgetful person sometimes. and my teachers think that isn't true but it is.. it's called short term memory. haha. it's not that i don't want to bring my homework sometime u know.. it's just that at that point in time i kinda lose my train of thought and forget what i'm doing. so then.. i won't remember it until it's too late. yupps. like.. i forgot to take my breakfast. this happened so often when i was schooling. i usually take a slice of bread and i leave it on the table. the thing is i have to rmeember to take the slice of bread with me before i go out.
but u see, the thing is i tend to forget that part and rush out the door. until i'm like.. halfway in my journey then i realise that i forgot to take my breakfast. like who wants to forget breakfast man.. seriously. so it's like.. i really forgot to do some stuff and like it's not that i wanted to do it. it just happens and i can't control it. i can't tell my mind like hey.. stop forgetting stuff cos it doesn't work that way. hopefully future teachers would be more understanding. so this means that i need to eat more fish to help me remember stuff better.
i miss talking to my bc friends. there're so far away. the memories they gave me were like unforgettable. hahahahaha. so many fun times. it's like.. we were the only ones in the group that really bonded u know. and we still talk and hopefully go out. haha.. but it's not too possible cos daryl and koonlong are still in ns. haha. the two of them.. are like sugar and coffee.. they go along so well. i just dun really get along with koonlong.. mabe it's cos i dun really know him that well yet and we haven't even spoken a word since we last met. i dunno. it seems kinda awkward to me. but daryl is a whole different story. who else would bug me in the middle of night saying that he couldn't sleep and wants me to talk to him. haha. in that way he is like.. kinda my best friend but at the same time he isn't cos i haven;t know him that long yet. haha. sam and guppy are my besties. guppy.. he's the first guy to be my friend.. if not i have no guy friends man. that would be kinda sad.
speaking of which i haven't talked to him in like the longest time ever. i should do so sometime soon. i have to go out with fishy too.. although we did go out that day to the education fair. haha. but no harm. gotta go out with sam, guppy, daryl and ma rui. DARYL OWES ME ONE OUTTING! haha. he said he would plan a day that we can go out. humph. haha. in the meantime i should think of other stuff i could do. ciao amigos.
man.. i can't believe that i haven't blogged in like the longest time ever. so a lot of stuff has happened. this is a public blog so i'm not too keen on revealing too much information. haha. well.. first off.. i reconnected with one of my long lost friend from england. loads of stuff has changed since the last time we talked. haha. that was like so long ago. well.. he grew taller.. that i know.. took out his braces and had some piercings and tattoos. yupps.. i still like talking to him.. i remember like the first time i actually heard his voice.. my first thought was.. what a cute accent. haha. but it's true.. y'all know british have a really cute accent.
anyways.. other that have happen. i became closer to my good friend from british council. daryl. haha. he's damn freaking funny. damn freaking funny. hahahaha. and he always suan me. always. first.. it's about be being a guy.. then i tell him that i'm a girl.. and he goes zomg.. you are? i thought u just like cross dressing! haha. he's loads of fun to talk to. damn.. talking about that i miss talking to him already. T.T he's my good friend.
ok.. other friends that i've made... ma rui and koon long. haha. they're awesome. oh.. i forgot about ashley. he's so full of crap sometimes. he loves to play tricks on me. he LOVES it. haha. but he always sleeps in class.. so who wakes him up? your truely.. haha.
other stuff? i dunno. i din go for prom and missed out on talking to my eyecandy. but i'm over him already. eyecandy... mmm.. haha. got a haircut and a nephew. haha. sighs... i'm tired.. haha.. will blog when i wanna.. (:
alr
u know i think that it's kinda funny.. just after i logged on i saw the featured question about how to accept rejection from the one u love.. well.. i went thru a few answers and thought that what solarhead said was really.. well.. wise in a way. i haven't thought about it that way before.. but i guess that thing has been trying to tell me the same thing to.. like when it's time to give up.. just give up. there's no use going on cos it'll only cause hurt to urself. it's not going to hurt the other person bcos they dun care about u already. i thought u might wonder what his response was. so here is solarhead's responseHow would you accept rejection from the person you love?
wow
I know a little something about this one.
Let it go. If there's nothing there, attachments/feelings not reciprocated, then there's no reason to continue with it ... only misery and paranoia grow in that garden.
Lighten up. Perhaps it'll prove itself to be for the Best. the Intended could turn out to be a whack-job or just a bad match, obscured by infatuation.
Walk Away. You'll never find what's waiting around the corner unless you actually walk far enough away to make the turn that leads to the rrest of Your Life.
PAX
http://www.xanga.com/Solarhead/666728480/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
pretty deep hur? i think it would help me outta this sticky situation that i'm in.
i thought that this guy's response was also pretty good..
http://weblog.xanga.com/marksonwalls/666727479/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
u all should go check it out. haha.
some other responses that were wuite intriguiing
http://weblog.xanga.com/poeticarla/666722911/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
http://www.xanga.com/mijau/666717614/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
http://weblog.xanga.com/Southeast_Beauty/
666700548/how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
http://www.xanga.com/CARLOSISTHEGREATEST/666686059/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
and the ultimate answer goes to this guy...
http://weblog.xanga.com/boldntrue/666702850/
how-would-you-accept-rejection-from-the-person-you-love.html
it's like wow... it's liek how the old saying goes.. "if u love someone, let them go, if they come back to u, they are forever yours, if they don't, they never were." it's so true.
wow.. it seems like just yesterday the comps just started, but now it's all over. well.. for me it is though. i guess.. i'm gonna miss it. this was my first time getting into the finals and it's like havoc there. we have the retards cheering for their school, the act cutes, the tyrants, the...clumbsy.. haha. guess u won't figure that one out. unless u already know about retards incorporated. haha. gonna miss trainings. hopefully i can still go down to train though. i cna't bear the thought of me gaining weight after i stop my training. i wanna be thin! haha. there were some obnoxious ppl that sat in my skool's place today and they din even bother to move even though they knew they were sitting where they weren't suppose to. i glared at them but apparently they din get the msg. so wols. haha. so disappointing though.. cos i really like that skool.. but their boys.. sighs. and one of them was really really hot but i guess he's already taken. i can't find a good looking guy that's not already taken. haha... dun think that i'm that attractive anyways.
although.. thong thinks that i am.. dunno la he.. already have a girl still go and say other girls pretty. but it's nice to know that i am though. haha. wish that some guy asked me out.. they are all so hot... well.. most of them.. and they are all swimmers.. haha. swimmers are cool. that's a fact. haha. we exercise every muscle in our body when we swim..hehe. i was damn nervous today actually. cos i kept counting my strokes but they were like all irregular. haha. it's suppose to be 5 strokes for five metres.. but sometimes it was like 5.5 or 6 or 5.. it was so confusing.. but i just stuck to five.. and kicked like mad. so we took off 8secs from out timing. i guess it's kinda cool that we actually got in the finals. would have gotten in for the free relay but we got dq. so sad.. we were sixth for that. but bygones are bygones. haha. so we jsut got 8th for the medley. this year it's quite good cos we got like 10 points for our skool. which is really good. if we continue having the coach.. i'm really sure next year there would be more peeps in the finals.. provided everyone goes for training.
well.. before my event.. i was really thirsty so i asked this girl if i could have some water and she said yea.. she's so nice.. haha.. i should have brought my water.. dunno.. weird craving for water.. haha
i'm so happy.. i can finally take my soft drinks and a bit of chilli!!!!!!!!! whee!!!! it's been weeks since i last had a soft drink and today i got a taste of it again and man did it feel good. so how did my other events go? well... dead last.. haha. so sad right? but i got a new pb. that's personal best! i bet my own record. like... hmm.. for free.. i beat it by.. 6secs.. for back it's like 2 secs.. cos my previous one was like.. 50secs.. which was really slow. i'm happy yea.. and the 100m is the most amazing one.. guess how much? haha.. hmm.. 12secs! wheeeeeeeeeeeee! haha. i'm happy really. at least i got a taste of what it was like to be in the finals and i thank God for the great opportunity. yupps. feel like watching a movie.. soon. there's some gathering tmr.. swim team is more bonded. so happy. just a question.. who's gonna be the next captain? hard choice. haha, the most likely one we can't pick. so.. it's just kinda hard. feels kinda sad to say bye to my cca.. i'll miss it so much.. haha. well.. i wish them all the best! yea.. happy memories...
so this is what happened. i screwed my mid terms. well screw it. enuff said. so i was picking out songs for my comp. unlike most ppl, i'm driven by music and emotion. that means, the angrier i am, the faster i swim. haha. most people want all the serene thing, but for me it just doesn't work that way cos i'm different. how i block out ppl? well i'm thinking of a song. i hope i dun forget to count my strokes. remember the flags. i think of something that would really make my blood boil. not telling wad.. and it does work. i can't meditate.. i have an attention prob or i would think so. music just helps me stay focused i guess.
screw exams. they are just a way to show u how stupid u are. so screw them. whoever came up with exam sure knows how to torture people. sometimes u wish that u could go back in time and just punch the person who create something that made everyone's life difficult. like.. math. urgh. i hate math. it's like a stupid subject u know.. wow like i'm gonna use integration in my job. that's why i picked a job which i dun have to use math. duh. even if it does, it would just be a minimal. i wouldn't need to use integration or vectors or any of those shit. haha.
so my song list. it's a bit different from wad ppl expect a girl to listen to. but i guess that sum 41 is quite good. nice rhythm i guess.. it's jumpy and gets me into the mood of the comp. really motivational. yea sum 41.. of course i won't forget the other great bands like new found glory and matchbook romance, not forgetting everyone's favourite, boys like girls. whoa! yea man. oh o forgot aboutlinkin park. that is like a adamn cool band. i wanna feel, i wanna feel... somewhere i belong! whoa! haha..
actually i'm kinda sad that i missed their concert.. haha.. at that time i din wanna go for it. i dun even know that band members' names.. i just like their music. like how i like daughtry. and how i dislike avril. she is just so.. eww.. can't believe it. still i can't believe that the comps are like... next week. it's too soon. i feel so unprepared but i'll give it my all. haha. besides i get excused from class. so i have to tell my friend to help me collect my work. and my other friends to help me take down notes and stuff. guess this is a short post then. nothing to write about. screw exams. haha.
i feel quite satisfied with myself u know.. i heard the song "we belong together" and i din even feel sad one bit. there's always something to talk about right? haha.. i guess so.. like stuff that happens during cca.. every week is like something new.. i think i would most prob be going out with the guys to eat.. undivided attention.. haha.. just kidding.. the guys just treat me like one of them
i'm like serious.. they talk about their......... even though i'm arond and it's like kidna gross.. at least they're are a nice bunch of ppl.. haha. i can't imagine if i'm the only girl there again.. what more.. mandy is here.. man.. i really dun wanna go.. but i hvae to.. if it's just me then... i dunno.. note to self.. please bring book to take down ppl's names who haven't paid me the fees yet. i'm quite glad that the school is actually very supportive of swimming.. yea man... i think that things would be a lot better in the future... imagine... in the years to come we could even beat the top three colleges that dominate swimming. we'll just have to start slow and steady.
so today i went to watch narnia. i tell u that show is freaking good. if i could i would go and watch it again.. it's so freaking good. haha.. i'll buy the vcd or dvd.. depends on whether i get a dvd player.. cos there's only a vcd player.. sucky i know. but i guess that it's good enough. haha. i feel damn tired man.. i think i'm gonna turn in early today.. after i finish my chem homework... damn i still have maths.. my maths teacher is such a freaking ***** u know... i can't stand her at all.. grrr... at least doing my work now would be like revision for my block tests.. haha.. yea.. so i should just do it and hand it to her and sit back and relax for the block test. but i wonder if i could negotiate with her.. that i hand it up to her after block test so that i have time to look thru them.. i dunno.. she's like so.. argh.. damn. why her....
i'm happy with the progress that i've made.. ut that doesn't mean tha t i'll stop being emo.. being emo is a part of me.. telling me not to be emo is like telling a singer not to sing.. yea.. guess i should hit the book right? yea.. i'll go make the deal with my teach soon.
whenever u're ready
whenever u're fine
we could do it again
just u and i
it'll be just like old times
only old times weren't that good
we'll do things differently
just u and i
to run on the beach
or sit beneath the stars
from watching movies
to walking endlessly
we could do it again
all over again
just u and me
whenever u're ready
with nothing to lose
and everything to look forward to
just one more time
let we do it again
just u and i
that's they way it is...
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