Monday, May 02, 2005

wishes

hmmm...POS POS POS....it's always pos...ppl checking on u...always wanting to know what u are up to...well i've got one thing to say...keep ur nose out of my business and back up ur ass where it belongs...seriously...it is getting f*cking annoying...and it really gets on my nerves...never get on my bad side cause u will recieve hell from me for all eternity...mwuahahaha...not really...until i juz stop hating u....sometimes it's a long time... some times it's short.

well, it's official...i hate my parents. they make my life a living hell...do this than do that, why can't u be like ur brother, or why can't u be like your sister? why can't u be smarter? we all expect u to be the best...be smarter than ur brother...more hardworking than ur sister nad more althletic than them both...HELLOO??!!!! WHAT DO U THINK I AM SUPER GIRL??/YA I WISH TOO BUT NO I CAN'T BE SUPER GIRL...I HATE U ALWAYS TRYING TO LIVE UR DREAMS THRU ME!!! YA U HEARD ME I HATE IT!!! WHY CAN'T U JUST ACCECPT THAT I AM NOT PERFECT??? DUN U THINK I HAVE ENOUGH PROBLEMS AT SKOOL AND HERE U R PUSHING ME ON AND ON AND GONNA CRACK ONE DAY AND GO INSANE...AFTER 15 YEARS OF NOT BEING IN MY LIFE, U THINK THAT U CAN JUST WALTZ IN AND PRETEND LIKE NOTHING'S HAPPENED???!! THAT U CAN JUZ TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE AGAIN??? WELL, SOORRRYYY BUT U CAN'T AND U NEVER WILL...I DUN NEED ANY OD U..ALL I NEED IS MONEY TO SPENT FOR IMPT STUFF AND A ROOF OVER MY HEAD....THAT'S ALL...I CAN'T WAIT TILL I'M 21 WHEN CAN MOVE OUT OF THE HOUSE AND NEVER SEE UR FACES AGAIN!!!!

WHY CAN'T U JUZ GET OUT OF MY FREAKING LIFE...I HAVE ENOUGH THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT THEN U JUZ COME IN AND MAKE MY PROBLEMS A HUNDRED TIMES BIGGER...U HAVE NEVER TRUSTED ME IN UR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE...WELL GUESS WHAT I DUN TRUST U TOOO AND I DUN NEED U....I HATE MY NAME...U JUZ NAME ME THAT B'COS IT STARTS WITH AN "A" IN REALITY IT HAS NO MEANING AND I HATE IT THE MOST...IN TIME TO COME I WILL CHANGE MY ENTIRE NAME...

NOTHING U SAY TO BE NOW AND FOREVER WILL WILL CHANGE MY MIND...I WILL STILL HATE U ALL UNTIL THE DAY I DIE...IT'S TOO LATE U FIX ANYTHING THE PAST CAN'T BE CORRECT ED AND THE FUTURE IS PREDICTED....

wow...that was an outburst...i still am fumming....not to mention that there are exams coming up....God...why di i have to suffer under famer? she is sooooooooooo annoying....and why do my frenz have to fight...why can't i be prefect and why can't i find my way without bad things comming? why is it when everything seems perfect, something will ruin it? why? tell me why...
isn't God love? and concern? well he certainly is not showing me he loves me...

i feel mismatched...like i'm in the wrong life...that someone out there os suppose to have the life i'm having...everyoone's perfect but me...everyone is happy but me...every one is moving on but me....i wish that i never existed....won't that be good? no more pain in the neck...no more not being perfect...

i wish for other stuff but who will hear me? who can understand me? who can confort me and tell me dun cry...everything's gonna be alrite i'm here~> this is not for my parents to say or for anyone who is blood related to say...this for for someone who i know that has no blood ties with me and is some one i can see confort in when i am in despair..

i wish...i...i...i wish...wish for.....

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|6:45 am|


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