Saturday, March 04, 2006

i am, i hate and i love

I am a prisoner of my pain
I am a person living a life of shame
I am your daughter hiding my deep depression
I am your sister making a good impression
I am your friend acting like I am fine
I am a wisher wishing this hurt isnt mine
I am a girl who thinks of suicide
I am a teenager pushing their fears aside
I am a student who doesnt have a clue
I am the girl sitting next to you
I am the one asking you to care
I am your friend hoping you'll be there

I love him
I love his touch
I love his phone calls
I love his smile
I love his voice
I love that he always cares
I love ___________

I hate it how he wants to know
I hate it that I am scared
I hate my emotions
I hate suicide even though i want death
I hate my past
I hate this pain
I hate hurting him

I fear doctors
I fear emotions
I fear being alone
I fear this world
I fear life after school
I fear failure
I fear my mother
I fear opening up to him
I fear losing him

I want him
I want his touch
I want to feel his love
I want to feel his warmth
I want to get away
I want to escape my past
I want to open up to him

Yet still I wait for him.....

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|10:57 am|

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