hmm...so i'm trying a new font again. well today isn't that good...to me...that's all. i'm failing english...of all subjects...it's not that i'm not trying hard..i am..but i juz can't seem to be able to pass the freaking compre no matter how many compres i did...i juz pray i dun fail. i muz pass my chinese listening compre tmr...i can't pay attention during physics...i dunno why too...i think it's me not the teacher...so screwed up for the exams...everyone is working so hard but me...why?? yes ppl...i'm angry with myself again.
i dunno what's wrong with me recently...i try to pay attention but i juz can't do it....i sleep. such a pig. i ahte hearing that i have so much potential...u know why? cos if i can't make it kinetic...then what's the point of having so much potential?? it'll juz turn into useless fats one day...grrr.
him. affairs of the heart...it sux seriously...robbing you oif ur performance, eating u up slowly with each passing day. why can't i juz forget about him?? his presecence lingers within me...in him i see myself sometimes...but i haven't really gone to that stage yet...he can treasure life...i throw it out the window. kinda bad rite? well as long as it's my life..throwing it out the window is not a bad thing after all. i dun get it seriously...if he knows how fragile life is and how precious it is...then why does he still harm his own life and shortens it?? it's juz so confusing...why i like him?? i dunno...i juz do..maybe it's cos he's nice?? but that's a lame reason. it has to be something more...i think about it after the exams i hope...i dun want it to interfer with my studies...which is what it's doing already.
i can't say i love him...cos that would be untrue...i juz like him a lot. hmm...hopefully he doesn't know. hope the ppl that read this blog won't go and tell him...tsk tsk it's call gossiping...besides...if u tell him...then i won't like him anymore...somehow...he won't talk to me if he knew...so ppl u better shut up! yeap. somehow i hope that he'll never read this blog...but a part of me wants himt o read it...letting him know that he's not alone in the world.
even in school...we're suppose to have friends, even if i'm with them i still leave alone. something is missing...i dunno what.i can't stand this particular girl in my class...even though she is suppose to be my friend...i can't stand her...she keeps making use of me. like asking me to reserve seats for her. i dun see why she can't come to skool earlier u know...she is such an ass...if my parents can send me earlier to school then why can't hers? dun tell me that her parents want her to be late for school?? she is so full of shit. seriously...she is...right to the brim and her personality sux too...i'm not talking bad about her...i'm saying what i think of her. there is a difference u know...this is my opinion so dun u any old how say me. arghs...i can't stand her lars...always so slow and stuff...all she cares about is herself...arghs....qsr..
here he comes floating into my thoughts again...himm...i need a mind vaccum cleaner...suck him out and put him in a bottle...then i'll stop thinking of him...rite now the most impt thing is study study and study
hmm...like the words?? well ame..u r so full of crap u know? yea i know...haiz...stop thinking of him. hmm..let's think of penguin. isn't that better? a penguin...hmm...cute penguin...black and blah blah....
i want to talk to someone...but forget it lars...i'm right that no one cares....so i shall stop bitching about it about? maybe not stop but reduce the times i bitch about it...hahaha...got it from a icon...stupid thing scolded me...yes an inanimate object. there were times when i needed to talk...but whenever i talked...the stuff i wanted to say never came out...i wish i had more courage to tell cube my prob. but i dun...my probs damn irritating...besdies dun want to bother him...i think he thinks that i'm so irritating u know...juz dun tell him..even thoguh i talking about it now...hmm...talking about your problems i good...but why bother if no one bothers to even listen...they all pretend...fakers....seriously..i think that...well not all ppl...but most ppl. i hate ppl who pretend to be your friends...and they dun like ur back at all..u know...ppl like hovstad from my lit play ...he is such a idoit...lumpy lard..
if my friends can't always be there for me...then the phrase the : friends will always be there for u...is void. ppl should really think before they come up with this kind of crap u know...about friendshipa nd stuff...juz screw it lar. u find out one day that all these mean nothing at all...like i have. ppl are juz hypocrites...they say one thing but in their mind they have sth else at heart. why is it that ppl say sth...and if u did not get it not get it they will say nevermind? what's the problem in knowing? why dun they want to tell?? if i am ur friend...then there would be no harm in telling me would there? i hardly leak out secrets. arghs...dun trust me then say lars...u dun have to use underhand means u know...
wells...bye...can't think properly now...
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hmm...so i'm trying a new font again. well today isn't that good...to me...that's all. i'm failing english...of all subjects...it's not that i'm not trying hard..i am..but i juz can't seem to be able to pass the freaking compre no matter how many compres i did...i juz pray i dun fail. i muz pass my chinese listening compre tmr...i can't pay attention during physics...i dunno why too...i think it's me not the teacher...so screwed up for the exams...everyone is working so hard but me...why?? yes ppl...i'm angry with myself again.
i dunno what's wrong with me recently...i try to pay attention but i juz can't do it....i sleep. such a pig. i ahte hearing that i have so much potential...u know why? cos if i can't make it kinetic...then what's the point of having so much potential?? it'll juz turn into useless fats one day...grrr.
him. affairs of the heart...it sux seriously...robbing you oif ur performance, eating u up slowly with each passing day. why can't i juz forget about him?? his presecence lingers within me...in him i see myself sometimes...but i haven't really gone to that stage yet...he can treasure life...i throw it out the window. kinda bad rite? well as long as it's my life..throwing it out the window is not a bad thing after all. i dun get it seriously...if he knows how fragile life is and how precious it is...then why does he still harm his own life and shortens it?? it's juz so confusing...why i like him?? i dunno...i juz do..maybe it's cos he's nice?? but that's a lame reason. it has to be something more...i think about it after the exams i hope...i dun want it to interfer with my studies...which is what it's doing already.
i can't say i love him...cos that would be untrue...i juz like him a lot. hmm...hopefully he doesn't know. hope the ppl that read this blog won't go and tell him...tsk tsk it's call gossiping...besides...if u tell him...then i won't like him anymore...somehow...he won't talk to me if he knew...so ppl u better shut up! yeap. somehow i hope that he'll never read this blog...but a part of me wants himt o read it...letting him know that he's not alone in the world.
even in school...we're suppose to have friends, even if i'm with them i still leave alone. something is missing...i dunno what.i can't stand this particular girl in my class...even though she is suppose to be my friend...i can't stand her...she keeps making use of me. like asking me to reserve seats for her. i dun see why she can't come to skool earlier u know...she is such an ass...if my parents can send me earlier to school then why can't hers? dun tell me that her parents want her to be late for school?? she is so full of shit. seriously...she is...right to the brim and her personality sux too...i'm not talking bad about her...i'm saying what i think of her. there is a difference u know...this is my opinion so dun u any old how say me. arghs...i can't stand her lars...always so slow and stuff...all she cares about is herself...arghs....qsr..
here he comes floating into my thoughts again...himm...i need a mind vaccum cleaner...suck him out and put him in a bottle...then i'll stop thinking of him...rite now the most impt thing is study study and study
hmm...like the words?? well ame..u r so full of crap u know? yea i know...haiz...stop thinking of him. hmm..let's think of penguin. isn't that better? a penguin...hmm...cute penguin...black and blah blah....
i want to talk to someone...but forget it lars...i'm right that no one cares....so i shall stop bitching about it about? maybe not stop but reduce the times i bitch about it...hahaha...got it from a icon...stupid thing scolded me...yes an inanimate object. there were times when i needed to talk...but whenever i talked...the stuff i wanted to say never came out...i wish i had more courage to tell cube my prob. but i dun...my probs damn irritating...besdies dun want to bother him...i think he thinks that i'm so irritating u know...juz dun tell him..even thoguh i talking about it now...hmm...talking about your problems i good...but why bother if no one bothers to even listen...they all pretend...fakers....seriously..i think that...well not all ppl...but most ppl. i hate ppl who pretend to be your friends...and they dun like ur back at all..u know...ppl like hovstad from my lit play ...he is such a idoit...lumpy lard..
if my friends can't always be there for me...then the phrase the : friends will always be there for u...is void. ppl should really think before they come up with this kind of crap u know...about friendshipa nd stuff...juz screw it lar. u find out one day that all these mean nothing at all...like i have. ppl are juz hypocrites...they say one thing but in their mind they have sth else at heart. why is it that ppl say sth...and if u did not get it not get it they will say nevermind? what's the problem in knowing? why dun they want to tell?? if i am ur friend...then there would be no harm in telling me would there? i hardly leak out secrets. arghs...dun trust me then say lars...u dun have to use underhand means u know...
wells...bye...can't think properly now...