this is getting a little lame. it came yesterday. u know what. so crappy. hoho called me yesterday...din want to talk...but figured i better listen to what he has to say...dunno why. female instincts? i dunno. so juz hear him babble...asking me about my day and stuff..and then that line: i've read ur blog. damn it man...this is like some freaky exhibition about my life...this blog...i wish i could lock it up sometimes..*sighs* seriously...i cannot write happy entries...ok maybe i used to. see ... used to. i've changed. really. back to that talk...talked to him about stuff...and things i wrote when i was p6..it was damn lame but quite cute sia. and he shared about his stuff...well most of it...stupid saying that u can't tell a woman everything...well that is id the woman is ____________ u know who...haha...basically she's the person everyone cannot stand. cannot say her name or she'll bad mouth me...tsk tsk. poor sam...has to put up with her. get it? haha..yea.
so as usual, today was a crappy day. din have time to go to class cos i was kinda late. seriously i think that nowadays i'm starting to be annoyed by ehcar. came to realise that she IS rather selfish and self-centred...like everything is about her her and her...kinda boring. and she's like..hmmm...annoying...dunno why i feel like that...maybe it's hormonal inbalance. i dunnnooo. her eq is rather low..she hurts ppl intentionally sometimes...that's why i dun really like her now. and i wanna kill mossy...she told her about THE SCANDAL. die lars...rache is the kind u dun tell stuff to...somehow...it's juz not good. yea.
chem. first period. mrs s. talked about metals...and that story came to my head again...darn it mag... it's: please stop calling me a crying zebra, i love hard core sex games, play! yea..it's for the reactivity series of metals. ate sweets and that stupid girl kept cursing me to get diabetes. so evil rite?? and everyone thinks that she is soooo nice...seriously. she can be a bitch sometimes. damn annoying. after chem was geog. ate sweets and slept. fam din mind. dun really care cos i'm the type who get kinda bored listening to ppl. she was doing a lot of yapping. paied attention for a while...sth about the oil plantation. yupps.then ENGLISH! i love english class. mag low is a damn good teacher. seriously. so did long esaay today...wrote about a serious accident that made an area safer for the ppl living there and working there. wrote about................ terrorism...kinda bad rite? everything has to do with death.sad lars. finished early. went for recess with zoooo yea. dun like the sec 3s...so annoying. irritating ppl. cut my queue all the time.ate nasi lemak. errss.................. and one lo mai kai...cos not having luch later got prat. dun really like pract. and one lemon tea...the drink stealer was there! no juz kidding... she a bit the smart sia...put so much chilli!!! siao! but ok alr...she can take hot. and we are talking about what if...asking paul what if u know...and chrisy kept asking so i ask her back...what if arh? what if he.... what if chrisy? then she shut up...hahhaha....x_X and the had to bring up eugene again...why?! can't u ppl accept that we are juz very good friends? that we share stuff like friends do...seech..u ppl are so crooked.
haha....maths after recess. vectors again. *sighs* boring...kinda lost..then i got it..shows that i have to practice...test tmr...study. no more open ook like he said...cheat my feelings. so yea. muz remember to sign edusave form and er...get a cashcard. need it for school. geog project is screwed. yep. assemblywas pretty ok. some finger palying grp came. did a skid. i like the duck...so cute. although i like pigs...but this pig is kinda tiaos...so i din like it...duck very funny. ya. after that was pract. i did wrongly..but who care? i do...did another time...shouldn't have...first one was accurate...so juz screw it...tell it to go and eat shit. crap thing. qa sux even more. go and die man....dunno what is the bloody thing...and i go freaking burnt...ouch! i din tell the teacher though..u know act tough...i'm not actually. juz din bother. so suffer with the pain. hopefully nothing happens cos it's burnt by chemicals...and it has chlorine. die lars...that stupid scent is still in my head... nose hurts. stomach hurt a lot today. u know why...dun need to say. wanted to play badminton..but thought going home to rest a while would be good. bought fishy her bday gift too. yay!
here i am again then. writing. found someone who has the same interest as me. death. that person looks forward to it and so do i. coincidence hur? maybe. i wish that nash could erm...start caring about his studies...if he retain one more year then die liao. yea. he waits for death. so do i...but still u have to care about stuff....rite?? i dunno...kinda confused. i seem to be like that most of the time. when i dun get stuff i ask...i ask and ask until my mouth becomes arid. still no one answers the questions the fills the recess of my mind. all the things i'll never know and everything i'm suppose to know...it's tearing me apart. hold it! there i go again...rambling about some crap thing which i dun get.
u know...i really dunno what's wrong with me. my motivation seems to be slipping thru my fingers. everything i once held dear...seems to be a thousand miles away....drifting far away into the darkness of the night sky. friendships that break now and then, feeling hurt endlessly...it's a vicious cycle. i think that the fights have mostly drained my energy...kinda whacked now...i'm not what i used to be. i think of it all the time...u know... IT...not good...but what's there to do? death is something i am not afraid of...anymore. things have changed. for better worse? that is the question...ppl say that literature lets u see the idea of human perception and motivation. it's kinda weird. work piles over like the mountains...i'm kinda....i dunno....exhausted. i find doing nothing boring but do something a drag....argh... i dunno what else to say...so....lost. so...trapped. i can't say what i want. i can't do anything anymore....the last time i ran in the rain...i felt alive again. besides the guys looking at u know....it was still pretty good. *sighs* reflection sux...gets u thinking and stuff...i need my baby(diary)...yea...not exactly diary...it's kind of a book where u write ur stuff in it... yea...until i dunno when again....
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this is getting a little lame. it came yesterday. u know what. so crappy. hoho called me yesterday...din want to talk...but figured i better listen to what he has to say...dunno why. female instincts? i dunno. so juz hear him babble...asking me about my day and stuff..and then that line: i've read ur blog. damn it man...this is like some freaky exhibition about my life...this blog...i wish i could lock it up sometimes..*sighs* seriously...i cannot write happy entries...ok maybe i used to. see ... used to. i've changed. really. back to that talk...talked to him about stuff...and things i wrote when i was p6..it was damn lame but quite cute sia. and he shared about his stuff...well most of it...stupid saying that u can't tell a woman everything...well that is id the woman is ____________ u know who...haha...basically she's the person everyone cannot stand. cannot say her name or she'll bad mouth me...tsk tsk. poor sam...has to put up with her. get it? haha..yea.
so as usual, today was a crappy day. din have time to go to class cos i was kinda late. seriously i think that nowadays i'm starting to be annoyed by ehcar. came to realise that she IS rather selfish and self-centred...like everything is about her her and her...kinda boring. and she's like..hmmm...annoying...dunno why i feel like that...maybe it's hormonal inbalance. i dunnnooo. her eq is rather low..she hurts ppl intentionally sometimes...that's why i dun really like her now. and i wanna kill mossy...she told her about THE SCANDAL. die lars...rache is the kind u dun tell stuff to...somehow...it's juz not good. yea.
chem. first period. mrs s. talked about metals...and that story came to my head again...darn it mag... it's: please stop calling me a crying zebra, i love hard core sex games, play! yea..it's for the reactivity series of metals. ate sweets and that stupid girl kept cursing me to get diabetes. so evil rite?? and everyone thinks that she is soooo nice...seriously. she can be a bitch sometimes. damn annoying. after chem was geog. ate sweets and slept. fam din mind. dun really care cos i'm the type who get kinda bored listening to ppl. she was doing a lot of yapping. paied attention for a while...sth about the oil plantation. yupps.then ENGLISH! i love english class. mag low is a damn good teacher. seriously. so did long esaay today...wrote about a serious accident that made an area safer for the ppl living there and working there. wrote about................ terrorism...kinda bad rite? everything has to do with death.sad lars. finished early. went for recess with zoooo yea. dun like the sec 3s...so annoying. irritating ppl. cut my queue all the time.ate nasi lemak. errss.................. and one lo mai kai...cos not having luch later got prat. dun really like pract. and one lemon tea...the drink stealer was there! no juz kidding... she a bit the smart sia...put so much chilli!!! siao! but ok alr...she can take hot. and we are talking about what if...asking paul what if u know...and chrisy kept asking so i ask her back...what if arh? what if he.... what if chrisy? then she shut up...hahhaha....x_X and the had to bring up eugene again...why?! can't u ppl accept that we are juz very good friends? that we share stuff like friends do...seech..u ppl are so crooked.
haha....maths after recess. vectors again. *sighs* boring...kinda lost..then i got it..shows that i have to practice...test tmr...study. no more open ook like he said...cheat my feelings. so yea. muz remember to sign edusave form and er...get a cashcard. need it for school. geog project is screwed. yep. assemblywas pretty ok. some finger palying grp came. did a skid. i like the duck...so cute. although i like pigs...but this pig is kinda tiaos...so i din like it...duck very funny. ya. after that was pract. i did wrongly..but who care? i do...did another time...shouldn't have...first one was accurate...so juz screw it...tell it to go and eat shit. crap thing. qa sux even more. go and die man....dunno what is the bloody thing...and i go freaking burnt...ouch! i din tell the teacher though..u know act tough...i'm not actually. juz din bother. so suffer with the pain. hopefully nothing happens cos it's burnt by chemicals...and it has chlorine. die lars...that stupid scent is still in my head... nose hurts. stomach hurt a lot today. u know why...dun need to say. wanted to play badminton..but thought going home to rest a while would be good. bought fishy her bday gift too. yay!
here i am again then. writing. found someone who has the same interest as me. death. that person looks forward to it and so do i. coincidence hur? maybe. i wish that nash could erm...start caring about his studies...if he retain one more year then die liao. yea. he waits for death. so do i...but still u have to care about stuff....rite?? i dunno...kinda confused. i seem to be like that most of the time. when i dun get stuff i ask...i ask and ask until my mouth becomes arid. still no one answers the questions the fills the recess of my mind. all the things i'll never know and everything i'm suppose to know...it's tearing me apart. hold it! there i go again...rambling about some crap thing which i dun get.
u know...i really dunno what's wrong with me. my motivation seems to be slipping thru my fingers. everything i once held dear...seems to be a thousand miles away....drifting far away into the darkness of the night sky. friendships that break now and then, feeling hurt endlessly...it's a vicious cycle. i think that the fights have mostly drained my energy...kinda whacked now...i'm not what i used to be. i think of it all the time...u know... IT...not good...but what's there to do? death is something i am not afraid of...anymore. things have changed. for better worse? that is the question...ppl say that literature lets u see the idea of human perception and motivation. it's kinda weird. work piles over like the mountains...i'm kinda....i dunno....exhausted. i find doing nothing boring but do something a drag....argh... i dunno what else to say...so....lost. so...trapped. i can't say what i want. i can't do anything anymore....the last time i ran in the rain...i felt alive again. besides the guys looking at u know....it was still pretty good. *sighs* reflection sux...gets u thinking and stuff...i need my baby(diary)...yea...not exactly diary...it's kind of a book where u write ur stuff in it... yea...until i dunno when again....
addios!