i miss.. there are many things that i miss when i think back.. so many things that i think.. i remember.. and i reminscence.. and i miss.. i miss being able to like someone just so innocently.. u know.. like after u've been hurt once.. twice.. a few times.. it's just hard to open up urself to another person again.. what happens if that person hurts me all over again. they say that you need the same amount of time to forget a person as u did to love them.. well.. can't say that it's true to some extent.. thinking about it i did take about a year or so to stop being angry at a certain someone.. to be as nonchalant as i am right now..
seriously.. i do not regret that it ended.. i'm actually glad that it ended the way it did.. or the two of us wouldn't be happy at all and he really isn't the person that i reallly want to be with.. the person i want to be with probably forgot that i even existed.. that's cos he's a big celebrity.. but despite knowng that i still like him u know? cos i really really really feel as though we are really made for each other.. but i don't know.. da lang asked me if i would be really happy if a celebrity proposed to me.. well i wouldn't know really.. if it's a taiwanese one.. i guess i would be happy.. cos asian celebrities are different from western ones.. i guess.. but i wouldn't know.
it's kinda weird how sometimes u just know a person for a few days yet u feel as though u've known them for a long time already.. well i do talk to dalang and bp as though we're like good friends.. but i guess only time would tell. i really don't know what kind of people they really are.. but i still hope that they are good people u know? sighs. my exams are coming.. i should be more concerned about studying instead of all these. i think da lang actually asked me out hypothetically.. cos he said he wanna go out with me when i go back home.. but i just met him.. dunno man.. i'll see first. can't say that i'm not scared bcos i really am.. most likely i would ask pau to go with me.. or fishy.. or just someone.. bp also wanted me to go out with him when i'm back.. sighs..
did i mention that i don't really like to drink coffee? sighs.. bp.. dalang. hey wait.. i realised that no smart people have asked me out.. T.T i attract not so smart ppl.. actually.. i would prefer someone who isn't that smart.. bcos.. love would be more innocent then wouldn't it? heh.. i haven't been someone's first love yet.. but someone was my first love.. how sad is that? actually.. it's kinda good in a way cos i won't have to break the heart of a person who never fell in love before.. a love noob. haha. that's gonna be my term man. love noob. i guess everytime we fall in love we become love noobs. (:
bp apologised to me today for coming back late last night and not being able to talk to me.. sweet huh? he's a nice guy.. i can tell.. but he loves to suan me and be lame.. lol. so fun when i talk to him.. most of the time.. with da lang it's like.. it's nice to talk to him.. but it's a different feeling that i get from him.. i just dunno how to describe it.. i hope that bp gets in poly.. hopefully he would get in..
so what is my lenten sacrifice? i dunno yet.. i can't decrease the amount of time on the comp.. for now i can't fast bcos i'm sick.. when i'm well.. i think i have to fast for the whole week.. mondays are good.. then.. tues.. and..thurs.. and fri maybe? i miss the big stupid.. he hasn't talked to me in a while.. sighs.. actually i think that he is quite handsome and nice.. and we share a lot of similarities.. but.. sighs.. i dunno.. still thinking about bp and dalang. haha. cho bu la ji xiang gu tou. i miss.. well i miss.. everything..
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i miss.. there are many things that i miss when i think back.. so many things that i think.. i remember.. and i reminscence.. and i miss.. i miss being able to like someone just so innocently.. u know.. like after u've been hurt once.. twice.. a few times.. it's just hard to open up urself to another person again.. what happens if that person hurts me all over again. they say that you need the same amount of time to forget a person as u did to love them.. well.. can't say that it's true to some extent.. thinking about it i did take about a year or so to stop being angry at a certain someone.. to be as nonchalant as i am right now..
seriously.. i do not regret that it ended.. i'm actually glad that it ended the way it did.. or the two of us wouldn't be happy at all and he really isn't the person that i reallly want to be with.. the person i want to be with probably forgot that i even existed.. that's cos he's a big celebrity.. but despite knowng that i still like him u know? cos i really really really feel as though we are really made for each other.. but i don't know.. da lang asked me if i would be really happy if a celebrity proposed to me.. well i wouldn't know really.. if it's a taiwanese one.. i guess i would be happy.. cos asian celebrities are different from western ones.. i guess.. but i wouldn't know.
it's kinda weird how sometimes u just know a person for a few days yet u feel as though u've known them for a long time already.. well i do talk to dalang and bp as though we're like good friends.. but i guess only time would tell. i really don't know what kind of people they really are.. but i still hope that they are good people u know? sighs. my exams are coming.. i should be more concerned about studying instead of all these. i think da lang actually asked me out hypothetically.. cos he said he wanna go out with me when i go back home.. but i just met him.. dunno man.. i'll see first. can't say that i'm not scared bcos i really am.. most likely i would ask pau to go with me.. or fishy.. or just someone.. bp also wanted me to go out with him when i'm back.. sighs..
did i mention that i don't really like to drink coffee? sighs.. bp.. dalang. hey wait.. i realised that no smart people have asked me out.. T.T i attract not so smart ppl.. actually.. i would prefer someone who isn't that smart.. bcos.. love would be more innocent then wouldn't it? heh.. i haven't been someone's first love yet.. but someone was my first love.. how sad is that? actually.. it's kinda good in a way cos i won't have to break the heart of a person who never fell in love before.. a love noob. haha. that's gonna be my term man. love noob. i guess everytime we fall in love we become love noobs. (:
bp apologised to me today for coming back late last night and not being able to talk to me.. sweet huh? he's a nice guy.. i can tell.. but he loves to suan me and be lame.. lol. so fun when i talk to him.. most of the time.. with da lang it's like.. it's nice to talk to him.. but it's a different feeling that i get from him.. i just dunno how to describe it.. i hope that bp gets in poly.. hopefully he would get in..
so what is my lenten sacrifice? i dunno yet.. i can't decrease the amount of time on the comp.. for now i can't fast bcos i'm sick.. when i'm well.. i think i have to fast for the whole week.. mondays are good.. then.. tues.. and..thurs.. and fri maybe? i miss the big stupid.. he hasn't talked to me in a while.. sighs.. actually i think that he is quite handsome and nice.. and we share a lot of similarities.. but.. sighs.. i dunno.. still thinking about bp and dalang. haha. cho bu la ji xiang gu tou. i miss.. well i miss.. everything..