lately i have been thinking, and i feel as though my mind is filled with insecurities. dabendan.. i like him man.. or i feel that i like him.. then again i'm not sure about dalang.. and bp.. well haha he hasn't talked to me in a while. i guess it's bcos i changed my name on fb.. cos too many annoying people are adding me and i couldn't take it anymore.. so just change. besides, i like the new name that i chose. wished that somehow it was my name. bendan.. haha.. i swear man he's stalking me or something.. haha.. he knows my name liao.. and it's cos of my own carelessness.. cos i forgot to hide my e-mail in fb. stupid right?
anyways.. whenever bendan is online he would talk to me.. and i really like talking to him cos it's damn fun, there's always something damn random that we would talk about. the other time we were talking about how many children we would have in the future.. haha.. he wanted 2 and i wanted 4.. if his first born is a son, then he want have one only. why? cos he loves his future wife very much, giving birth is painful and he don't want her to suffer or even worse, die cos of the child. so nice... but for me.. i want 4.. if can.. then 5.. actually.. 7 if i'm really good, i know which years i want them in already.. it all depends on when i get married then.
lol.. he wants to get married when he's 26 and i want when i'm 24 or 25.. haha.. plus i'm one year younger than him ^^ so happi.. the sad thing is i can't be abck home for a while.. he told me though.. that if i was studying back home then he would zui me already >.< lol. but i dun really know whether he is ready for a relationship cos his first love hurt him damn badly and like he can't really give himself up to anyone already.. he won't give a hundred pesent in the relationship.. i mean.. i would like someone who is willing to put in 100 percent, although i know i might get hurt again.. it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved before.
third time's a charm (: i hope so too.. actually. i already calculate.. when i finish my studies, i would be 23? so we have 2 years to go out with each other.. wah.. but i think a bit too far also right? lol. see how first.. i like him a bit.. and maybe he like me a bit too.. i hope that he can find courage to love someone wholeheartedly once more (:
dalang.. this person confuses me seriously man... first he talks a lot to me and then now he's not replying my msg.. mmm.. nevermind.. if he don't reply then don't reply lor.. at least i would know that he is not serious and don't really care about me one.. so allow me to concentrate on my bendan.. ok.. not mine yet but he's single.. heh heh.. i mean dalang is not that bad looking.. buttt.. i feel like there is really not much that i know about him and that i know more about bendan that i know about dalang.. but dalang already told me that he want to zui me. wa seh. guys are damn complicated man.. on minute they say they want u, the next moment, they don't want. werid creatures man seriously.
luckily, my feelings for dalang haven't really develop yet so i dun really care that much.. still can go out with bendan when i go back ^^ happi.. very happi.. but at that time he got ns liao.. so only weekends and public hols and... weekdays after 6pm. but still ok for me.. sept cannot then go in dec.. surely can one.. we both love fish and chips!!! food very important.. and we both hate fishcake and fishball.. lol.. still say i copy him.. so cute lur..
perhaps he's the reason why i wanna lose so much weight too.. i feel that i am able to lose that much weight too..afterall.. i can't eat much anymore after i had my mandy and then the flu.. must rememebr that i have dental tmr.. going there by taxi ^^ BENDAN!!!! ^^ i shagua, he bendan.. very compatible.. haha.. tell me his fish need to sleep.. actually it's he need to sleep. haha.. like i say he damn cute one.. and such a nice person.. (: happi that know him ^^
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lately i have been thinking, and i feel as though my mind is filled with insecurities. dabendan.. i like him man.. or i feel that i like him.. then again i'm not sure about dalang.. and bp.. well haha he hasn't talked to me in a while. i guess it's bcos i changed my name on fb.. cos too many annoying people are adding me and i couldn't take it anymore.. so just change. besides, i like the new name that i chose. wished that somehow it was my name. bendan.. haha.. i swear man he's stalking me or something.. haha.. he knows my name liao.. and it's cos of my own carelessness.. cos i forgot to hide my e-mail in fb. stupid right?
anyways.. whenever bendan is online he would talk to me.. and i really like talking to him cos it's damn fun, there's always something damn random that we would talk about. the other time we were talking about how many children we would have in the future.. haha.. he wanted 2 and i wanted 4.. if his first born is a son, then he want have one only. why? cos he loves his future wife very much, giving birth is painful and he don't want her to suffer or even worse, die cos of the child. so nice... but for me.. i want 4.. if can.. then 5.. actually.. 7 if i'm really good, i know which years i want them in already.. it all depends on when i get married then.
lol.. he wants to get married when he's 26 and i want when i'm 24 or 25.. haha.. plus i'm one year younger than him ^^ so happi.. the sad thing is i can't be abck home for a while.. he told me though.. that if i was studying back home then he would zui me already >.< lol. but i dun really know whether he is ready for a relationship cos his first love hurt him damn badly and like he can't really give himself up to anyone already.. he won't give a hundred pesent in the relationship.. i mean.. i would like someone who is willing to put in 100 percent, although i know i might get hurt again.. it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved before.
third time's a charm (: i hope so too.. actually. i already calculate.. when i finish my studies, i would be 23? so we have 2 years to go out with each other.. wah.. but i think a bit too far also right? lol. see how first.. i like him a bit.. and maybe he like me a bit too.. i hope that he can find courage to love someone wholeheartedly once more (:
dalang.. this person confuses me seriously man... first he talks a lot to me and then now he's not replying my msg.. mmm.. nevermind.. if he don't reply then don't reply lor.. at least i would know that he is not serious and don't really care about me one.. so allow me to concentrate on my bendan.. ok.. not mine yet but he's single.. heh heh.. i mean dalang is not that bad looking.. buttt.. i feel like there is really not much that i know about him and that i know more about bendan that i know about dalang.. but dalang already told me that he want to zui me. wa seh. guys are damn complicated man.. on minute they say they want u, the next moment, they don't want. werid creatures man seriously.
luckily, my feelings for dalang haven't really develop yet so i dun really care that much.. still can go out with bendan when i go back ^^ happi.. very happi.. but at that time he got ns liao.. so only weekends and public hols and... weekdays after 6pm. but still ok for me.. sept cannot then go in dec.. surely can one.. we both love fish and chips!!! food very important.. and we both hate fishcake and fishball.. lol.. still say i copy him.. so cute lur..
perhaps he's the reason why i wanna lose so much weight too.. i feel that i am able to lose that much weight too..afterall.. i can't eat much anymore after i had my mandy and then the flu.. must rememebr that i have dental tmr.. going there by taxi ^^ BENDAN!!!! ^^ i shagua, he bendan.. very compatible.. haha.. tell me his fish need to sleep.. actually it's he need to sleep. haha.. like i say he damn cute one.. and such a nice person.. (: happi that know him ^^